I met this girl. Who is in my opinion the total package. She's beautiful, smart, funny, challenging, the whole 9 yards. At first I really wasn't into her at all, because after having two female roommates, being surrounded by their beautiful friends, seeing how men respond to them, and my fair share of heart bumps and bruises. I have grown somewhat of a disdain of skin deep beauty that by proxy is automatically attached to women of extraordinary beauty until conversation reveals that their beauty isn't just skin deep.

However, after spending time with her and seeing the substance of her beauty. I became one of those guys!!! Then came along AI and served as a refreshing reminder of what I was doing and a solution for my circumstance.

Today, I still very much enjoy watching her smile and have a good time. I'm not particularly funny, although, every once in a while lightning strikes. Therefore, her laugh doesn't usually come from me. Nevertheless, I have learn to still appreciate her smile, and pour love into her regardless of attachment. Don't get me wrong if she offered to be my girlfriend today I wouldn't refuse her. Nevertheless, my focus is on getting to a place of plenty in my life.

I personally believe that if God is love, and I have a relationship with him then I should be able to pour freely unto others. Guys and girls alike.

That being said "I'm on an enlightenment high, so I'm able to express these words now. My goal is to feel this through and through more often than just now."